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[AlmrOfAtlas]

Glad to hear things are looking up Tenshi! Wish you all the best and I'll never forget our awesome chats! Remember you have lots of friends who care about you ^o^/

 

That WIP looks like it's going to be the cutest one yet <3

 

For what it's worth, you're not alone in feeling that way. Not going to express my life's story here, but let's just say I've gone through a suicidal phase of my own.

It's good that you're getting out of that dark place. Can't say the same for me since it's gotten bad to the point I've kind of lost any ability to socialize properly. So keep your chin up and know that things will get better for you at least.

 

*fully divests and goes in for the glomp*

[domino2000]

i am happy that you could share that chapter of your life (not happy for what happened just happy you could share oh i am no good with words but what i mean is that i think if you can share it with other people you are becoming stronger than the pain and if your can talk about it i think soon it will no longer hurt you so much idk how to explain it i am a feelings person oh god i am just happy for you because you are overcoming the bad good is stuff nice and !!!!

but... i am really happy you could get this new job and that things are going well for you now... i can only imagine how hard it were for you. i always thought it was bullcrap, until that rainy day came and all my life changed: i used to think that when elderly people said that after the storm the sun shines again they knew nothing about what a twisted mind and such a wreck of a person could be, but it IS true, after all suffering and depression and thinking there is no place for you in the world at all and feeling alone and despised and feeling you should die, if you can overcome all that with a little bit of perseverance and a great deal of patience (specially with yourself) you can definitely do it. i too had some problems with drugs and depression and such, i think we really are alike (beyond the mature people issue lol) (and maybe you are a pisces) but you were stronger than suicide and i am very happy and why not say proud too because not everyone can survive it. you were very strong to keep on living and come here again and write all you wrote... i am also very happy that you could find such a wonderful person that could help you so much. sometimes we can only rely on others because somethings we cannot do only by ourselves right? and you are wonderfully lucky to have this person!! and it is definitely not weird of disgusting! you will offend me too if you say such a thing!! (lol) i think it's only natural to do that, we are human and we make mistakes but by doing so we learn and learning is what keeps me alive up to now, the curiosity about what comes next? if i used to think my life was over and now i came to discover it isn't, what amazing discoveries are coming next? i think like that.

i am not surprised about what you said, we know human beings have this whole dark background behind them and if we were to judge and be surprised about everyone we know we would be already dead because of a heart attack! we can never expect, just observe...

you did not have the courage to do that, but you have the courage now to do something much more difficult, and that is to live and suffer more and more and learn more and more and be more and more happy too. i myself tried to put an end to this all a few times, and now i am so happy it did not work out because if i had i would never be able to know that even if you think so, you are never alone. aren't we talking right now? i think it's good

LOL i too had some issues with my family, so i can only agree 100% that when people fight they should consider those who are around them as well. i didn't at the time lol

i think i know what it's like to be in the dark and cold and humidity and creating a mushroom farm, but if you have all this people who care about you in here, i think you are doing very well! 

congratulations on your strenght and i admire you who could get out of the dark and head towards a bright future! that's the hardest and i know a lot people cannot do it.

thank you!! let's do our best always!

 

ps: go couple mini project go!

 

Edited by domino2000, 27 February 2015 - 08:08 AM.

[ZeroTigress]

*fully divests and goes in for the glomp*

*logs out before the glomp*

[Oda]

Tenshiii, I am sorry to hear that you will be leaving RO, but I am happy to hear that things are improving for you. Thank you very much for your beautiful artwork. 

[Myzery]

I'm really glad that your life is turning around.

I have followed your thread here for quite a while and I really enjoy your art.

Experiences are what make you who you are and are nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed of.

You're a strong person for admitting that you had problems and even stronger for resolving them instead of giving up.

Without what you've been through I doubt we would have seen some of this wonderful art that you channeled through.

 

Hope you have a bright future no matter what roads you go down.

[Tenshiiii]

Oh man.

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For what it's worth, you're not alone in feeling that way. Not going to express my life's story here, but let's just say I've gone through a suicidal phase of my own.

It's good that you're getting out of that dark place. Can't say the same for me since it's gotten bad to the point I've kind of lost any ability to socialize properly. So keep your chin up and know that things will get better for you at least.

 

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I'm not exactly doing good in the socialization department myself, lol. I stutter trying to buy a god damn 2 for $1.99 giant burrito in 7/11 for dinner. I don't know... It's been 5 years since I talked to a friend "physically" and conversations in school between people last about 15-20 secs most, and I still stutter about 70% of the time, or bite my tongue. Either way, I'm not exactly learning any social skills there, but I don't really mind not having good social skills. I'm used to it. So used that I gave up on it. And at this point I'm done caring, haha. I don't want to try hard talking to people irl so I won't because I just make a fool out of myself.

 

It's just my circumstance right now- I found it really nice finding myself trying hard in doing something good.

 

Thanks Zero. I just hope I don't go back to using them. It's been a couple of months but the temptation to drink them is still very strong. I'm shaking every night trying to resist the urge and I'm experiencing a lot more things related to it. I'm guessing this is called withdrawal. I'm not surprised since I used them nearly 3 or more years. My desire to not get called a drug addict is greater though so I'll keep at it. I just hope that I don't lose my way again.

 

 

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Glad to hear things are looking up Tenshi! Wish you all the best and I'll never forget our awesome chats! Remember you have lots of friends who care about you ^o^/

 

That WIP looks like it's going to be the cutest one yet <3

 

 

*fully divests and goes in for the glomp*

 

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Yeap! Thanks Chima. Believe me, I'll never forget those as well. Dankeeee

 

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i am happy that you could share that chapter of your life (not happy for what happened just happy you could share oh i am no good with words but what i mean is that i think if you can share it with other people you are becoming stronger than the pain and if your can talk about it i think soon it will no longer hurt you so much idk how to explain it i am a feelings person oh god i am just happy for you because you are overcoming the bad good is stuff nice and !!!!

but... i am really happy you could get this new job and that things are going well for you now... i can only imagine how hard it were for you. i always thought it was bullcrap, until that rainy day came and all my life changed: i used to think that when elderly people said that after the storm the sun shines again they knew nothing about what a twisted mind and such a wreck of a person could be, but it IS true, after all suffering and depression and thinking there is no place for you in the world at all and feeling alone and despised and feeling you should die, if you can overcome all that with a little bit of perseverance and a great deal of patience (specially with yourself) you can definitely do it. i too had some problems with drugs and depression and such, i think we really are alike (beyond the mature people issue lol) (and maybe you are a pisces) but you were stronger than suicide and i am very happy and why not say proud too because not everyone can survive it. you were very strong to keep on living and come here again and write all you wrote... i am also very happy that you could find such a wonderful person that could help you so much. sometimes we can only rely on others because somethings we cannot do only by ourselves right? and you are wonderfully lucky to have this person!! and it is definitely not weird of disgusting! you will offend me too if you say such a thing!! (lol) i think it's only natural to do that, we are human and we make mistakes but by doing so we learn and learning is what keeps me alive up to now, the curiosity about what comes next? if i used to think my life was over and now i came to discover it isn't, what amazing discoveries are coming next? i think like that.

i am not surprised about what you said, we know human beings have this whole dark background behind them and if we were to judge and be surprised about everyone we know we would be already dead because of a heart attack! we can never expect, just observe...

you did not have the courage to do that, but you have the courage now to do something much more difficult, and that is to live and suffer more and more and learn more and more and be more and more happy too. i myself tried to put an end to this all a few times, and now i am so happy it did not work out because if i had i would never be able to know that even if you think so, you are never alone. aren't we talking right now? i think it's good

LOL i too had some issues with my family, so i can only agree 100% that when people fight they should consider those who are around them as well. i didn't at the time lol

i think i know what it's like to be in the dark and cold and humidity and creating a mushroom farm, but if you have all this people who care about you in here, i think you are doing very well! 

congratulations on your strenght and i admire you who could get out of the dark and head towards a bright future! that's the hardest and i know a lot people cannot do it.

thank you!! let's do our best always!

 

ps: go couple mini project go!

 

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Aha, it's cool. 

Yeah, was pretty hard at first. Been half a year trying to look for a job... Can't even count how many times I've applied to a store x.x. Aha, yeah. And I'm a Libra! I'm a god damn weighing scale ;-;

 

Yeah. The only reason I had the courage to write was because I thought to myself, "Well, I'm leaving anyway, better tell them what I am." Still, I was very scared of rejection since I know people generally don't like drug addicts. I even despise myself for abusing such drugs just to fall asleep. (Had sleeping problems for about, idk, more than 3 years and I abused such substances about the same time as well, sigh*.)

 

Ah, no. I was referring to myself. The moment I came to the realization that I was a drug addict, I found myself weird and disgusting to the point that just by thinking about it made me puke..

 

Thanks Domino! I'll try to do my best in life as well.

 

Tenshiii, I am sorry to hear that you will be leaving RO, but I am happy to hear that things are improving for you. Thank you very much for your beautiful artwork. 

 

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Thanks GM Oda. You're welcome. Very happy you found my contributions beautiful. I am happy being a part of this forums.

 

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I'm really glad that your life is turning around.

I have followed your thread here for quite a while and I really enjoy your art.

Experiences are what make you who you are and are nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed of.

You're a strong person for admitting that you had problems and even stronger for resolving them instead of giving up.

Without what you've been through I doubt we would have seen some of this wonderful art that you channeled through.

 

Hope you have a bright future no matter what roads you go down.

 

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Thank you. I really appreciate it.

 

I still can't help but feel very embarrassed. It's very disgusting. It makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. Makes me shiver saying I was one. But man, it's gonna feel so good looking back after several years or so being free of it and say "Man, I was like that before, huh. Now I am 2 years drug free." Dang, that's gonna feel so good.

 

Thank you. Those tiny moments of happiness just gave me enough courage to type something here. 

 

I see. That may be true.

 

Thank you. I hope the same for you as well man.

 

 

Here again, tackling 2 or more artworks at once. Sigh*

 

Couple project is almost done. WIP

 

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WIP for april loading screen.

 

Re-scaled to 2000 x 1500 because working on 800 x 600 hurts my eyes.

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[Dokey]

Oh. My. God.

Totoro Eddga is the best thing since Oda Frog and Crampitor from Fier. What a great idea for a loading screen

[Cinquine]

Doing totoro justice I see! So cute. >_< I can't wait to see it finished

[Tenshiiii]

Oh. My. God.

Totoro Eddga is the best thing since Oda Frog and Crampitor from Fier. What a great idea for a loading screen

 

Thanks! I read Oda's post and I was a bit disappointed because I thought it was live-action movies initially, (and I'm not a big movie guy, except for animes) so I pm'd him about it and voila.

 

There are so many good anime movies in the 80s and 90s it's going to be a sin if it wasn't included q-q. (Internationally as well.)

 

But since he took so long to reply I subtly "dibs'ed" Totoro on the loading screen thread.   

 

Doing totoro justice I see! So cute. >_< I can't wait to see it finished

 

Thanks Cin! Don't expect too much though, please.

 

Alright, finally. Done.

 

My take on April loading screen thread. 2000 x 1500

 

My Neighbor Eddga

 

Damnit, wait. Will be uploading it again in a few mins.

 

Ah, F it. His pipe wouldn't make sense anyway since the rain would put it out. Decided to not put it.

 

 

I friggin butchered Totoro, I'm sorry.

Edited by Tenshiiii, 14 March 2015 - 02:55 PM.

[Cinquine]

You never disappoint me

[Kadelia]

Hahhhhhh! That is great artwork.

[Sizzleboom]

Holeeee wow

 

Seriously, what an awesome loading screen entry that is.

[Myzery]

Pretty damn cool!

[Tenshiiii]

You never disappoint me

Danks 

 

Hahhhhhh! That is great artwork.

Thanks Jaye! I try ;-;

 

Holeeee wow

 

Seriously, what an awesome loading screen entry that is.

Danks Sizzles! I'm quite content w/ it.

 

Pretty damn cool!

Thanks Myzery!

 

 

 

Alright, my last RO piece... Well, this was quite hard for me to do since I didn't know what was a more beautiful ending to their lives. 

Originally, this was what I was planning on doing. That's why I only displayed half of the wip on my previous post. I wanted it to be a surprise.

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That's the priest and the ghost of the assassin who died in war and they are looking at their son.

That was my plan originally. But since I was working on this in a part of my life where most things are turning for the better, I thought, well, why not let them have a happy ending as well.

 

 

So I came up with this instead ---

 

Title: The Start of a New Chapter

 

 

I still firmly believe that the other one is just as beautiful though. Just not as 'happy' but life is not always cakes and chocolates, is it?

 

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Ahh. It's been one hell of a ride... I'd like to thank you all for everything, for the comments, for the encouragement... For everything. I'm not that good with words and I hate it but what can I do. Thank you all for stopping by, thank you for looking at my work and I wish you guys the best in life.

 

 

If you'd like to visit me though, you can find me on my FB or DA located on my signature. 

 

Here's 2 of my favorite sound tracks. It helps me calm down at nights where it just feels like everything is turning to sh@t.

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I set it on repeat on my psp.. so goood. Try it out and I hope that can help a little.

watamIdoing

Anyway, I guess that's it. You guys have a good one.

[Tenshiiii]

Mini project in order

 

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THE KOMA GOES HERE! It's just too big ;-; http://i.imgur.com/PHjEZoI.jpg

 

 

 

I hope I made you feel butterflies on your stomach or something. If not, that's okay as well, haha. o/

[tatihana00]

we love the work~ I hope that someday you come back and visit with us~ *waves* I will remember you.