I finished putting all my affairs in order today.... What can I say? It's been a ride...
I want to tell my story a little bit, but first you should know something about me as a person.
I flunked college because I was too scared to speak out loud. I was just that shy of a person. The internet became my only social outlet and through the various people met I started to use the phone, talk to just one person.
And eventually one day as fate may have it I came across RO. Mad because my online friends on MSN messenger weren't replying much and I wanted to know what this Ragnarok thing was. My best friend and I joined.
There were things that happened, relationship dramas and the like that led to her leaving but I never believed it would be forever so I set out to do in RO what she so badly wanted and that later set me on a course I could never imagine.
I joined a guild. They used ventrilo, I was still too shy to speak. One day the guild broke and me and the remaining people didn't know what to do. Eventually we decided to make our own guild and they wanted me to be the leader because I had cloaking and recall was coming out soon.
One day there was drama and they left - they didn't think we were doing well enough. They scammed some of our guildmembers and I was devastated. I nearly quit but first I wanted to make good with the people who got scammed. I felt responsible and I wanted to be able to repay them what they had lost and it kept me going and made me determined to make Valhalla successful. Which is when I found out the item my best friend had wanted so badly was a god item. A sleipnir to be precise. And so, I felt the guild wasn't strong enough to compete to make the better god items, I set out to make these godly shoes in honor of my best friend who no longer played.
As the years past I began to talk on voip. I met people, they encouraged me to be more than I was, still shy but I met up with them, travelled to places in Europe and the USA with them and eventually I began to meet up with more and more people. I grew confident and didn't feel afraid to express my opinions. I began posting on the forums and soon I had contacts throughout the entire game.
And now, even in the last few years - I've flown to California, met many of my guild - different people each year and grown to learn that I can do it. I can speak out, and what's more I can speak on behalf of people and even lead them. It's had a huge impact on me as a person in real life - no longer being that scared person that would rather pass a note or hide behind someone else when something needed to be said.
Thank you to everyone who I've met on this journey - no matter how much or how little we interacted, everyone has had a huge, and positive impact on this shy, scared person's life. Thank you so so much and I hope that everyone else's RO adventure can be as positive and as wonderful as mine.
p.s: If you ever read this, to the valhalla co-founders. We did it. Despite what you said and did. We became a guild where dreams were realized.
Edited by Xellie, 20 May 2018 - 04:32 PM.