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I am not a popular person. Not famous on forums and neither in-game. I just log in sometimes here to post something or sell stuff, stating some opinions. Sharing a friendly debate and some banters here and there.
I just wanna take this off my chest and at the same time share my story. I mean no harm. This might bore anyone though, so feel free to hit “back” anytime.
I started playing on this server some years ago on a december. Having no friends, i played with my acolyte along with my swordman. Dual clienting is not hard but by no means easy healing, alt-tabbing, tanking, killing and looting one by one at the same time. Some people even tried to grief me by luring mobs to me, i always end up dead.
Wearing my eden gears, i climbed to a job change. Made higher level eden gears and wore them to battle with pride. In my eyes, wearing those brown eden hats makes my characters look strong.
Until i met my first friend, he was an LK back then. He randomly traded me in izlude bridge to give me hats. We started exchanging good mornings on Rodex Messages, then on chat. He later on became my boyfriend.
I proceeded to rebirth my characters; then transitioned to AB and the other one as RK, which i stopped playing as.
I focused on building my AB. Met my grinding partner. Met friends in mid ti, as they always see me by the entrance and almost always up for a party. Back then i used to play RO in every hour that im awake. I even eat in front of my PC sometimes, chatting with my friends or waiting for my guildies for an instance run while my AB is sitting by our guild spot.
By then i started making zeny as a support AB, by buying and selling reset stones, HE BM, Oda Elixr and many more. I challenged myself not to spend a single dime in this game. I failed. I started buying WPE and selling Carnium/Bradium Boxes. It was a bliss getting stuff for my beloved AB. At last i wont feel sorry for her not having a Chibi Pope like other ABs.
I met more and more people as i play this game. I met more friends. I met rivals. We had fun. We argued. We laughed together.
I maxed my dear AB. Then i realized, we(her and i) are not needed anymore by my friends. I made a ranger. I played with my boyfriend as duo. It was a lot of fun running instances together and hunting MVPs with my other friends. Then when my friends started to quit one by one, i made four gene. I told myself not to quit. It's a lot lonelier playing solo. My friends got back to game, we ran instances together but on different characters. By that time i understood, we cant hang out more like we used to do because of new job schedules. It was still fun. We got back sitting AFK together in north prontera. Chatting with them when we got time.
I remember having a conversation with one of my guildies. With all of our friends and comrades quitting and selling their stuff, we have the same mindset: no quitting. Maybe going “AFK” for a long time, maybe month-long breaks. But both of us said we wont quit, ever. Our stuffs will die in our accounts.
Some circumstances just wont make that possible anymore. Seems like i have to quit anyway. Feels bad being locked out. Not knowing what will happen next. Being left out in the darkness.
I dont think someone not going through this will understand. You only learn the value of something once you lose it. Losing interest in a game and quitting it yourself is far from being kicked out while you still have passion for it.
After the time spent playing a role of a virtual character that took shape as my identity. Along with people i met here which i will otherwise never meet. Imagining one day suddenly not being a part of the community we built together. This is just heartbreaking.
Im too heartbroken to get angry or to blame anyone. I just wish it didnt end up like this.
But i guess this is it.
This is Xanne~ ….signing off.
hoping for some miracle to happen.. 
im not from EU but this sudden happenings makes me heart broken as well.....
